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Thinking I need to once and for all live a sober life. Things get better but only for some time and then we crash hard. Now I need to find a place to live in a few days...if not its time for me to go home.
Return with nothing. No car, no phone, no bass....feels like Im falling faster and faster down a spiral-I've been here before but I was saved by idk what but for a while it felt like I stopped. Years passed by and I felt like I was stuck in limbo. Then I moved and everything seemed better only to discover I had always been falling except now its faster, like if I was in constant speed for a while and then I accelerated to feel something different-except where are the brakes and handles to climb up??
Im lost once again. Where do I go from here? What do I do?

La DNA.

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