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Today was a day of moving. May the fourth be with you. Went to a "Build your own Lego Man" birthday party and then to an after party bounce house. To the park for a play date with my sponsor's grandson-I think it is amazing and challenging to see two 3 year old toddlers socialize ❤️ and then back to their house to continue playing. Needless to say--we didn't eat very healthy (jajaja), basically sugar on top of sugar with some water. This may not seem like a big deal to most people; however I have A LOT of social anxiety. Small gatherings I can do. Big gatherings or gatherings with people I don't really know--I avoid. Being more open about it with my friends and co-workers has actually helped. They understand when I "flake" on an event. But they also really really support and encourage me to attend. With a happy-go-lucky social kid, I don't really have a choice. I DON'T want him to be like me or his father--nervous and anxious around people.

First Friday of the month at a local government agency can be challenging. Especially when the team is covering for a co-worker that will be out for the next 3 months due to mental health issues. She did not practice self-care. She normally carries a "specialized" case load that involves women and men currently residing in an alcohol and drug facility with at least one child. For many years she was the only worker who worked with this "specialized caseload". I knew she was struggling. It was common knowledge in the office; however sometimes the social service field can jade and numb many of the workers' ability to acknowledge each others struggles. Perhaps because they are dealing with every one's trauma while dealing with their own secondary trauma if not their own trauma. So instead of healthy self-care techniques; she picked up smoking. Fell behind on cases, paperwork was not tracked correctly and families went without the support they should have receiv

Its been a few years... I've had some crazy ass adventures. Lots of ups and downs. Gravity hit hard on those down times haha. BUT. 09/15/2013. That is my sober birthday. In the last 5.5 years I have promoted 3 times at a local government agency in Eugene. I have gotten engaged, had a baby boy. He is incredible. Got out of some insane debt---I have been "adulting" successfully! I will be starting a graduate program in the Fall and will still be working full time--with a 3 year old. So that I don't go insane--I will be practicing "self-care" activities and venting a lot on this blog. I will try to keep everything as discreet as possible. This is the internet tho. So self-care practice and venting will commence NOW. If anyone has some interesting ideas, please feel free to share with me. Today: Mommy and Kid day. Taking in the fast times as much as possible. Breathe innnn... La DNA